Over the weekend I read a post on a kind of spammy looking blog that really resonated with me. Basically, the guy says people should stop “blogging” and start talking about their day-to-day lives. It made me think back to 2 years ago when I first started this blog – a lot of my initial posts were either backstory or random observations. That was before I had readers and became plagued by thoughts like OMG MUST GIVE THEM SOMETHING AMAZING AND USEFUL OR THEY WILL NEVER COME BACK.
Believe it or not, there’s a lot of pressure associated with maintaining a blog (assuming it’s a real blog and not a bunch of generic articles written for search engines). It’s not easy to crank out multiple posts every week that are interesting enough to share with other people. I’ve cut back my posting schedule a lot in the past few months, and it’s not because I don’t want to post; it’s because I haven’t been able to come up with something “good enough” to say.
Part of me feels like it’s snooty to think that way. Like people are frantically refreshing my homepage, just waiting for me to dispense my infinite wisdom and enrich their lives. (And for the record, that’s not really how I think of myself and this blog.) I don’t really know how to describe it… Something just changes with the awareness that people want to hear what you have to say.
So in the interest of having a Monday post instead of panicking and/or publishing an old draft that I don’t even like, I’m going to tell you about my weekend. I’m sure you’re all on the edge of your seats!
This Was My Weekend
I was sick all last week, so I spent most of the weekend catching up on work. I’ve really tried to stick to the schedule I set for myself at the end of 2012 but it’s nearly impossible. If I stop working for the day, I feel like I can’t even check Twitter after that because my clients will be like, “She’s not answering my email yet she’s sitting around tweeting!” I just don’t know how to achieve balance yet.
Remember all the drama with my Target card? They ended up closing my account completely for lack of use, so I called back to reopen it and they wouldn’t do it without a new hard pull on my credit report and a whole new account. So now I’m mad at Target forever and ever.
I finally broke down and bought an iPad mini (without the 5% discount from those assholes at Target), which arrived on Friday. I honestly wasn’t sure I’d like it, but I decided I’d compare it to my full-sized iPad. And holy crap, you guys… I don’t ever want to use a “big” iPad again – the mini is awesome! It’s the perfect size and weight. So the mini will stay and the big iPad will be going to a new home, thus paying me back for what I spent on the mini. It’s all one big delusional Apple circle of life.
Jayden’s new glasses also arrived this weekend. I ordered them from Zenni Optical for like $37, compared to $200+ if I had bought them from our eye doctor. He made me promise I wouldn’t put a picture on the blog or on Facebook, but since I’m a fan of loopholes, you can see them on Instagram if you want. I’m amazed by how different he looks… So much more grownup. It makes me a little sad.
There are a lot of things going on in my personal life, few of which I’m comfortable sharing right now, but I’m pretty stressed and it’s affecting my ability to concentrate on work. When I had a “real job” I could get away with slacking every now and then, but it’s not really an option now that I work for myself. Every hour I spend worrying is an hour I’m not getting paid, and while I try to remind myself of that, some issues are just bigger than money. It’s kind of funny to see myself type those words, but it’s true. I just try to stay positive because I know things will get better – they always do somehow.
So there you go – that was my “exciting” weekend. This wasn’t a blog post – it was a blabbering diary entry – but maybe that’s okay every now and then. I hope spammy blog guy is happy. Anyway, if there’s anyone still reading, what did you do this weekend?